
Yeah I do somethings well, I'm an Ok writer, I can do some interesting things with 120, and I got a decent understanding of 120 for the most part, but I am no more the Supreme being than those I've taught. Yeah Em but you still taught me, no nigga-by teaching you I taught another aspect of 'myself' and that is where it ends. That is where it must end in order that you may achieve your highest elevation into the conscious self realization of the Most High. Ain't no big 'G' or little 'g' math poppin' off if I enlighten you. That big 'G' little 'g' shit has reached pandemic proportion in this Nation. Fuck that bullshit, pedestal propping is the origin of all religion. I eventually got myself off the pedestal with every student I taught, even if I had to fall out with them to the point of hatred. Guess what? If they're beefed out with me, that means their pedestal free. Jesus' teachings were 'Freedom'. As an Enlightener if you're sincerely teaching Allah's Mathematics to another you should be doing that with all students, if you ain't got techniques for climbing down off your pedestal that students have the tendency to put you on, then that means you’re a bloodsucker. The respect level from God to God has to be mutual, not unilateral, this is the only way you graduate to the 36th chamber, and remember the 36th chamber was based on teaching the art amongst the people. Da God Truth rolled with me the longest out of all whom I've taught and during that time Emblem had no pedestals. I have my own legs to stand on, but no pedestal to hover above da God Truth or any other God I taught during that time. Every student in this math needs to be released from gazing at his enlightener like some some star struck fool! You will never come into the fullness of your Godliness if you're constantly walking on eggshells around another nigga. My Enlightener released me from pedestal gazing after 20 years. He told me when I first got lessons not to put him on a pedestal, but that was it. Your enlightener can tell you that shit all fuckin' day in the beginning, but when you start building with your Enlightener you become proud and say to yourself, "Wow. Thatz my Enlightener." Subconsciously you begin to operate from that 'wow' paradigm. And your not fully God if you operate from a 'wow' paradigm. It happens to all of us. My Enlightener gave me this paper entitled 'Rules of a Student' in which it said 'Honor and respect your enlightener at all times', its funny how I only remember that rule. So I proceeded to tell every student, "Nigga you think I'm wise, wait until you meet my enlightener!" I'd put niggaz on the phone with him, take niggaz to meet him so he could demonstrate his grandmaster technique. Fuck that shit! This ain't no fuckin' Kung Fu flick with cheesy voiceovers. How did I take da God Life off a pedestal? I thought I had done it 20 years ago but I hadn't. You walk around with this false sense of equality, but it is not real 'equality'-it is still on some bogus subliminated big 'G' little 'g' shit still. Every God must be mindful to take his enlightener off a pedestal, and fully understand the psychological work that that entails. The enlightener usually does something or should do something to remove himself. And if he doesn't he should just back da fuck up and disappear on some Fard type shit. A man can't grow under another man. Suppose Michael Jordan kept saying, "Wow Doctor J is amazing!!!" MJ would have been too star struck to realize he was twice as good as Doc(No offence to Julius Erving but Mike was that deal.) Don't get me wrong, it is not about being 'better' than another God, it is about becoming the Lord of a particular world, master of a given area of discipline. In other words 'get in where you fit in' nigga. Be the best at what you do! That captain giving an order to the lieutenant is for the birds. Allah ain't no fuckin' lieutenant! That is what this math is about. The Father told them little niggaz that use to call themselves, 'The Sons of The Father' yall niggaz is God too. That is what he stressed, we stressed that he was big G and still do, and for those that do that shit-you need to just call yourself religious. The Father was oh so human! How he was said to carry himself is what attracted me to this math. I did not want to follow Farrakhan. Farrakhan is wise but I didn't want to follow nobody. However we do! We follow, we listen to our Enlightener's a little more than we would some other nigga, and usually that shit ain't on equal footing. My Enlightener use to sometimes call me at 4 a.m. in the moring and go straight into a spoken word piece, "New Shoes and Blues, Pall Mall cigarettes and hard booze..." I'd be in the triple darkness of the black Mind of Allah snoring my ass off and God would call and start spittin like he's at a spoken word venue. Nobody on the planet Earth could have called me at 4 in the fuckin' morning without gettin' cussed da fuck out. If Obama called I'd tell him, "Nigga you better wait til the God hour." But when it's your enlightener you lay there and listen to the fuckin' spoken word piece, wiping sleep out your movafuckin eyez, wondering if the shit is a damn dream.
"How you like the poem God?" He would ask.
"That was mad peace Almighty." was my conditioned response. That is what you're supposed to say. Thatz your fuckin' enlightener-you are suppose to say it is 'peace' even if the fuckin' poem sucked. I've had knowledge of Self 20 years and I still had to listen to said spoken word piece, so subconsciously even the Emblematic One still had his Enlightener on a pedestal.
The pedestals fell like dominoes in my Family Tree: My Enlightener took himself down after 20 years. It was weird how it happened but it is something that happens in a student when the glass ceiling above your head shatters. It is seemingly becoming a rite of passage in this nation when you tell your Enlightener, "Yo dude I'm God too." When that happens, you ascend. Saladin got in contact with me after ten years and I felt he was subconsciously seeking the removal of his enlightener's glass ceiling from above his head. I ain't here from this nigga for ten years and I get a call one evening, "Peace God!"
"Who da fuck is this?"
"Saladin!"
"Peace God!"
"blah-blah-blah!" Ten years worth of blah blah fucking blah. I was still dealing with math, and he was still dealing with math, but I still had some shit buried there after ten years. On a certain level I'm still thinking "Is this nigga still a coward? Is this nigga still letting movafuckaz punch him in the face and still folding like a pussy? I held his act of cowardice against him and still do. It's petty-I know-but his act of cowardice was still buried in my subconscious after knowledge cipher years. If your best friend runs while yall are in the middle of a brawl, you ain't gonna never look at that nigga the same, even after ten years. His act of cowardice resonated in my subconscious as the God who ran. No matter what he was doing or how many narcistically perverse youtube videos he had, or how long his blogs are or how big his movafuckin words are: In my mind he could have used words like supercalifragilisticexpialidocious in a sentence and I still would think he was a coward at heart. In my mind he was the nigga with the name of a soldier who let a bitch ass nigga from Love Allah make Deen his bitch-so in my mind he was subconsciously still a coward in my eyes, and I had a difficult time calling that nigga Saladin with a straight face. The real Saladin walked up in King Richard's Kingdom with a sword during the crusades when Jerusalem was taken from the devil and told King Richard the Lionhearted, "there is enough room in Asia to bury all yall pussies." So yeah da nigga changed his name legally but he still had a noodle for a spine in reality. And I say what I say out of love.
Da God Life calls me and said, "Why'd you call Deen a Metrosexual? I'm disappointed in you-you seem egotistical to me!" and hung da fuck up!" First of all no one censors or has a say in what I write. No one! I was so pissed I went to the gun range the next day and let off a hundred and fifty rounds. I write what da fuck I want. Any prison house placed on my pen takes away from the quality of what I write, so censorship will never happen for the ink that touches my page.
That shit fucked me up when my Enlightener hung up on me, the pedestal I subconsciously had him perched on started crumbling in my third. Deen came back after ten years subconsciously to take me off a pedestal and the residual effects triggered my enlightener to come down from the pedestal that I had subconsciously placed him on. The nature of the chain of events seem prophetic, prescribed and predicted because under ordinary circumstances my Enlightener would have never come off the pedestal. The thing is I didn't even know I had him perched on a pedestal until after said event. I was pissed but I was released. I know what Method Man meant when he said, "Release your Self" Now nobody in their right fuckin' mind has the right to call me at 4 in da fuckin' morning and not get cussed da fuck out.
Peace
Em